Two Zero One Zero.

Year 2010.
Resolution?

To not have any resolutions.

Don't see the point of having resolutions. 'Cos it's always better to improve and make one or few targets every day instead of making one long list of stuff you'll probably break and not do for the rest of the year.

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Learned something today, or rather, for the past year.

That I'm not good enough.
I try, but in vain.
Time, energy, effort, tears, prayers.
Waste of effort, I'll say.

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Throughout the previous year:

The backup guy.
Unappreciated.

People come find me only when shit happens :)
Or when they need something done.

Despite everything I do, it still seems like I'm a disgrace to be mentioned.
Compared to people to who do nothing :)

People keep saying I don't understand.
Well, don't tell me anything if you think I won't understand.
Don't tell me anything if you think I can't help in any way.
It's even better for me, 'cos that leaves me with more free brain space to deal with my own problems, a very big thank you.
And don't say you understand when you still do things that a person that doesn't understand does, because that's the same as not understanding at all.

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On the spiritual side,
I wouldn't say anything about first half of the year.
It's easy to serve and do things for God when you're all fired up for God after a church camp.
To be able to serve God, the same way, when you're feeling dry and low, is the real test.
The second half of the year's been a time of testing, I'll say.
It wasn't a smooth road all the way. There were bumps and potholes.
However, God has been a good teacher.
All the things I've went through taught me many valuable lessons :)
And of course, for the many small and seemingly insignificant blessings throughout the year that I've ignored or missed out on, thank you God :)

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2010.

All I can do is I pray that it would a good year.
Don't attempt to be 'good enough'.
Never expect anything from other people or hope in another person, 'cos I'll have my hopes dashed every time I do so.

Mmmmmm, 2010 :)